Two things: I cried my face off reading this first look, which says a lot about the author's ability to hook me into the story. The main character's panic at his loss... it was so real, so honest. So honest that I truly don't think my mental health can handle reading this, just from the perspective of a parent who also has a lot of panic attacks, especially about death. I wish I could read it, because it is clear that it is going to be phenomenal, and I do hope I will be in a better place to read it some day.