I Can't Even

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I don't even know where to start with this. I flew through this book, ignoring all of the studying I need to do for my finals. I was swept away by this book. At first, I was kind of skeptical about it. I didn't think that I would enjoy the different point of view switches, but it is much needed to grow each character. AND THE CHARACTERS GROW. Not just the main characters of Ivy and Autumn, but their friends and dad, too. I felt as if Ivy's character growth just randomly happened one day and there was nothing leading up to the change. But in the scene and in the moment, I believe this growth is a natural way to progress. Autumn had the most character growth, and I cried reading her saying her goodbyes. You could gradually see her growing through her thoughts and who she was following. And their dad made me cry at the end with his stepping up as a father after they lost their mom.

A few things I disliked, but understand why they had to be this way: One, the way things ended with Kathy and Chris. After reading the author's note, I understand that this was reminiscent of the way rape culture is in our world. But I also am against it in the real world, too. So I am glad that this book is out here to fight for those who feel as if they are lost in the void. Two, I didn't understand the way that Autumn was written into the book until reading the author's note, and it makes sense why she wrote Autumn in in this way. However, until I read the author's note, I didn't understand how Autumn could just follow people around like a ghost, this felt more like a realistic fiction to me, and this element made it a little less unbelievable. But, again, my thoughts on this were more understanding after reading the author's note.

This is a great, fast paced read for anyone who wants something deeply impacting and something that will really make you question the way our society works.