Oh my God. This was incredibly disturbing and disturbingly incredible. My brain feels melted after all this. It was good, so good, but it also made me feel so icky inside. The mind manipulation that was so deeply ingrained in these people was awful, but I loved how Camellia was beautiful inside and out and was able to see the beauty within a person, or acknowledge that all types of shapes, colors, and styles were beautiful, even though the world was telling everyone differently. I get everything the author said about feeling like this story was a monster growing inside her. This book was a monster, and it devoured me as I devoured it. I am for sure in for some crazy dreams tonight. I cannot wait for the sequel!