I have a strange relationship with this book. I really enjoyed the writing style and at the same time was absolutely driven crazy by the structure, it was all over the place and at times felt random as opposed to thoughtful. I did however enjoy a lot of the characters, especially Allison who reminded me of myself when I was her age (making me extremely grateful we didn’t share the same fate). Also Claire, her younger sister was strange and obsessive and at some points entirely unnerving. I really did appreciate the author depicting how she worked though her grief which kind of ran parallel to Clive and how he dealt with losing his family and essentially his life. Overall this is close to a ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ read for me.