I wasn't sure if I wanted to read this book but I did receive it from Bookish First and I thank them for choosing me to receive this ARC. The book came kind of late for me to be able to read the whole thing, with this virus going on and being an essential worker I just haven't had the time to devote to reading as much as I would like to. I am interested in this story more than I really thought I would be. My heart goes out to this author. It feels like I was there with him in some of what he went through. Although I never was associated with any cult or commune, I can relate to feeling like no one cares, or no one is listening to you. The things this kid experienced and saw and had to do just broke my heart. I am about half way through and look forward to being able to finish and find out what happens to him.
Update: When I wrote my original review, the book was due to come out on May 5th, 2020. I received it as an ARC through Bookish First, but due to Covid-19 I didn't get the book in time for me to finish it by it's release date. So, my first review was only for the first part of the book. As the book went on, it was sad to read the relationship between his brother and him, and his mother and him. He had so much good in him and needed to be able to share that with someone but he didn't have anyone. As he got older he found an outlet...running and his band. When he started talking about his band I found it rather hard to continue reading but I believe it ended up being an important part of who he ended up being and where he came from. This is not what I expected from this book. I thought it was going to be more about the life he had in the cult but it had more to do with his life after the cult and how he had to figure life out on his own. I am glad I had the opportunity to read this book.